I’m only fooling myself

2 Jan

3 months of daydreaming, and 2 months of self-debating if the daydream should continue. Finally, the debate was over yesterday evening. It was crystal clear to me that I should STOP daydreaming.

Most certainly, I felt a prick in the heart. I was shocked and overwhelmed for a moment, but I should have saw it coming. Shouldn’t I?Despite that, I need to move on, and focus on the real in life.

The real is that I have lovely family and friends. The real is that there are many people in the world in help of our help to survive. Wasting time on self-absorption, is just plain selfish. Why not use the energy to help and show some love to the people around?

Thanks goodness to my timid character, I was spared all embarrassment. Thank god I did not do anything on impulse- which is what I’m notorious for. From today onwards, I shall not think about it (or anything related to it) and look forward.

Just let nature take its course, what is yours will be, and no one in this world can ever take that away. But what is not yours, even if you fight and possessed eventually it, it will be gone sooner than you know it!

On the first day of 2012, I have finally woken up for the dream I had for 5 months! Thank God it’s finally over, and now I can spend my time and energy on other stuffs that make this world a better place- starting with being nice to the people who love me dearly!

2 January2012, is the date where I shall start to focus on the REAL in life. SOMEDAY IT WILL BE MY TURN. SOMEDAY…


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